5/12/2014
I am really missing CJ. Maybe it's
because I know he will have this same opportunity in just a couple of
years. But I think about him so much. I'm glad that I have such a
sweet brother who is loving and dorky and cool :)
I can hardly wait to share with you the miracles I have seen while teaching Adrian, our 19 yr old investigator. I sort of feel like you did when you experienced that powerful change of heart on your mission. If I don't receive any other confirmation for the rest of my life, I will be ok! After a matter of weeks, an unmistakable change took place in his heart. And after that spark, the light in his eyes is so brilliant! One month ago, he would barely speak and simply slouch into the couch, more like he was enduring the lessons. He didn't trust us enough to pray with us and didn't understand anything he would read in the Book of Mormon. Now he smiles!! He tells us about his happiness, confides in us about his concerns, and bears his heart in every prayer he offers, I know the Gospel is true because it makes people change. And maybe we're not so much becoming new, unrecognizable people, but rather we're changing more into the people Heavenly Father has created us to be. But also like you said, we must be constantly experiencing changes of heart through the spirit to be truly converted.
Before my mission, I wondered if I would be one of two missionaries. The kind who needs their mission, or the kind whose mission needs her. I shortly realized (and am still in that process) that I need my mission in order to be truly converted, to be able to truly cherish the Gospel and become like the person Heavenly Father expects and needs me to be. I am so grateful that I need my mission! It really makes me appreciate this sacred time I have here. but also, for the first few months, I was teaching and baptizing people who were so prepared that I knew it didn't matter who taught them, they were going to get baptized. While I was able to see just how the Lord really does prepare His children, I was feeling a bit useless, As if there wasn't a point in me being here because I wasn't affecting the work. It would be done with or without me. I came with the expectation that I would be the answer to someone's prayers, and that my decision to serve and be obedient would be in direct correlation with someone accepting the Gospel.
With one minute left in my P-day, I'll just say that Adrian is why I'm here! Maybe there will be others, but I can't wait to tell you more about his conversion :)
Sorry that came to an abrupt ending, but I love you so much!! Tell CJ happy Birthday, and you as well!!
05/19/2014
I've been thinking about what that does to us a children of our Heavenly Father. I've noticed now more than ever the effects of passing unfair judgment on others. It really does weaken the spirit and makes it very difficult to be lead and prompted by the spirit. Very often, we disregard the Savior's admonishment that if we love him, we will keep the commandments. If we are loving the Savior, we are loving others. And if we are loving others, we are loving the Savior. You can't have one without the other. Not saying that I am perfect in that department at all, but I have been able to see that I am much happier and at peace when I have the companionship of the Spirit, so I've been making an effort to change.
Adrian was baptized last Saturday!!! It was such a beautiful service. Before that, though, my companion and I sang Divina Luz, or Lead Kindly Light, because Adrian's favorite songs all have "luz" in them :) i.e Jesus es mi Luz, La Luz de la Verdad, etc. The only problem is is that I have inherited Dad's musical talent and am not worth that much when it comes to harmonizing. My companion on the other hand, is very musical and encouraged me to try to sing the melody as she sang the harmony. Every time we practiced, when we would come to the 3rd verse and Sister Harmon would break off and sing the harmony, I couldn't keep singing the melody, and we would both lose composure and laugh. I warned her that I couldn't promise anything if she chose to break off during the actual musical number in front of everyone, but she insisted that she had faith in my ability to sing the melody. When the 3rd verse came, she broke off and I was able to hold my own for the first three lines. But, and the very last line of the song, I couldn't get the melody, and I was very off. My companion started laughing during the song and I soon joined her! We were both embarrassed, but the thing that made her a little mad was that all of the members asked why she messed up the beautiful song! Both her and I know that it was my fault because I can't sing which then made her laugh. But all of the members are tone deaf and thought it was beautiful!
Adrian didn't mind, though :) He was very emotional after he rose out from the water and didn't gain his composure for the rest of the service. He is so special, and I am so grateful for this time I have had in San Leandro. These members are so wonderful and I love them dearly.
I found out Saturday night that I will be leaving San Leandro and going to Oakland (specifically Berkeley) for the next transfer and I will be moving my things there tomorrow. It was tough in Church yesterday as the Branch President asked me to come up during Sacrament Meeting and bare my testimony. After Church there were a lot of hugs and tears, but I'm really excited to start a new transfer in Oakland! My new companion came one transfer after I did, so she's pretty new as well. I guess I'm not THAT new, though...
Last night we saw Adrian at a member's house and as I left, he started to cry. He told me thank you for all that I had done for him and he would miss me. He said that he wishes I could see him change other peoples' lives and be an example and grow into the man that Heavenly Father wants him to be. Needless to say, that made me cry quite a bit :) I was overwhelmed with gratitude that my Heavenly Father loves me enough to experience this joy and happiness. I am also very humbled by the fact that if it wasn't for the Spirit and the love and help from the Lord, Adrian wouldn't have changed at all. I feel such pride in my converts, but am so very aware of the hand of the Lord in each of their lives.
I really am nervous for this change which will be happening tomorrow, but I know that this is where the Lord needs me at this time :)
I love you so much! Have a great week
:)
Mads
The first picture is of me and Santa
and her daughter Maritza. I love this
family so much!! Santa was less active when I first came to San Leandro,
but she helped us a lot with teaching Roldan and Adrian. She loved coming
out with us and helping us teach because it reminded her of the beautiful
testimony she has. She's now in the YW presidency. Her kids are amazing.
We had family home evening with them quite a bit, and Maritza and her
brother Ricky have been getting a lot more involved.
family so much!! Santa was less active when I first came to San Leandro,
but she helped us a lot with teaching Roldan and Adrian. She loved coming
out with us and helping us teach because it reminded her of the beautiful
testimony she has. She's now in the YW presidency. Her kids are amazing.
We had family home evening with them quite a bit, and Maritza and her
brother Ricky have been getting a lot more involved.
The second is our San Leandro
District with Hermano Miranda, a really
amazing man.
amazing man.
And the third is Hermana Canales on
the left, and Hermana Enamorado on the
right :) Hermana Canales, la Peruana, fed us every week and she is an
AMAZING cook!! She also serves so much. I want be like her when I grow up
:) That includes being Peruvian, of course.
right :) Hermana Canales, la Peruana, fed us every week and she is an
AMAZING cook!! She also serves so much. I want be like her when I grow up
:) That includes being Peruvian, of course.
I love los Pena!!! They are amazing
missionaries, I love them so much. They have been so involved in the
missionary work in the branch and so supportive. Hermana Pena always gives
us the food she buys at Costco :)
Adrian's Baptism
Hermana Smith and Hermana Harmon
5/26/2014
Well. I was transferred to Oakland, which you already know. Our area covers above the 580 into Berkeley and Emeryville, so you can look that up on Mr. Google. We're in a car, obviously, for the travel and also because I would protest walking around downtown Oakland. It's actually not that bad. The part that we are in is very diverse and very hilly! But it's great :) The Elders have International and South of that which is the sketchy part of Oakland. I wasn't shaken up at all though while moving or the morning after. Usually after a change, I get really nervous and anxiety kicks in, but this transfer I just felt secure and peaceful. And then I found out that we don't have any investigators. That was a really big shock and a HUGE change from San Leandro. When we would have 7-8 member present lessons and a couple of others a week in SL, we had only 4 lessons last week and they were with recent converts and less actives. The numbers look really pitiful and discouraging, yes, but I am so pleased with how hard we worked last week.
The Lord's promise is that He is preparing people to accept the gospel. He will lead us to them, or He will lead them to us. That is conditional on our obedience, work, diligence, and love for the Savior and willingness to serve him. I know that we did that last week. I think this is what brings me this peace and hope. I don't know when we'll see those blessings, or even if those blessings will manifest themselves as people to teach this coming week. But I know that we will be blessed for our work. That is something I've been gaining a lot of perspective on out here.
Thinking about several situations within the family and seeing investigators I love choose to use their agency in ways that are contrary to the gospel, I've had a question for several months. Which is: What is the difference between hope and faith? We learn in the scriptures that all things are possible if we have sufficient faith. That miracles have not ceased to exist because of our faith in God and His power. And that if we are truly faithful, we won't even ask for things which are contrary to the will of God. (1 Nephi 7:12, Helaman 10:5)
However, if something doesn't turn out
the way that we had hoped and prayed for, does that mean that our
faith wasn't sufficient? Or was it contrary to the will of God?
Recently, I've noticed that for
myself, my hope leads me to have faith. My hope that we will find a
family and baptize them within this transfer leads me to act and
work to find people to teach! Our hope is a confident expectation
and longing for the promised blessings of eternal life. So far in
my understanding, my faith leads me to act and is fueled by that
hope for eternal life (Alma 13:29, 2 Nephi 31:20)
It's all very confusing. I still have
some more thinking and studying to do, but I think I'm getting
closer. If something didn't turn out the way I had hoped, it's not
necessarily due to a lack of faith. I still have hope which allows
me to keep going and move on, and my faith in the Lord assures me
that He will keep His promises as I keep mine.
I hope that was somewhat beneficial
and not a complete jumble of unconnected thoughts :)
I love you so very much and want you
to know that your prayers are truly appreciated and recognized. I
know that my endurance levels aren't a result of my own strength,
but by your faith and the mercy and love of my Heavenly Father.
Thank you for everything, I love you and pray for you constantly!
Until next Monday!
Love, Mads
The first one basically says screw off if you're not Catholic. We knocked on their door anyway :) The second one is to show that I can prepare mediocre meals!
My Trainer/mom went home last week :(
I said goodbye to Sister Harmon, but my new companion is Sister Hernaez from the Philippines!
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